I’ve just returned home to Australia from the beautiful St Moritz.
My time in beautiful Switzerland was a bit more than a training camp.
Brett Sutton is a former coach of mine and someone who has been big part of not just my triathlon life, but has always been checking in to see how my family and I are doing. I suppose when I haven’t raced professionally for 4 years he cared even more.
Rewind a few months back I had jumped into a few local races for fun and on limited training. Injured and ill again. I was at a low and pretty much exhausted all motivation to continue the quest of racing at a high level again.
It was then that Brett gave me the opportunity to join him in St Moritz for some training and to figure out what it is I want to do. Apprehensive and a bit emotional I jumped on a plane to Switzerland at least to give myself a taste of being in that environment again… with no expectations.
It’s been great to just train, eat, sleep and train. I love training …the majority of the time. Most elite athletes will tell you it’s not all glitz and glamour. Not every morning do they wake up and say” yeah I can’t wait to do this session “! And if they are, well they’re the ones probably not training hard enough! Lol! With an end goal in sight and a strong head, they get it done and tick the box. It’s the will of they do whatever it takes …so it is a case of head down, focus and get on with it.
My time in Switzerland was an emotional roller coaster. Making that decision …. do I continue or is it time to retire? In a nutshell… that was what was at the core of this whole trip.
I put my decision down to this last sentence. In that I felt I had to “decide”. The fact that I had feelings for retirement told me I didn’t have the drive anymore. No desire. In reality, there wouldn’t have been a decision if I wanted to pursue racing at a high level again. To be the top in the world you have to want it bad. That’s what gets you to the top. Who wants it the most. Your life revolves around it and you’re prepared to do anything for it. Any Gold Medalist will testify to that I’m sure.
I’ve been on the podium numerous times and I know what takes. Utmost dedication.
So after four years out I’ve decided to retire.
There’s simply more I want to do in life. I’ve loved my life as a triathlete. It’s given me many friendships, allowed me to travel numerous times around the world and live in and experience different cultures. I’ve represented my country proudly for 12 years and embraced every moment of it.
This decision was hard because in a way I felt like I was giving up. Brett said to me at the start of this trip that it will take more courage to stop and retire, than to continue on. At first, I didn’t agree, but he was 100% right.
I’d like to thank everyone that’s been on this journey with me …..past coaches , sponsors , training partners, supporters , fans , friends & family . Thank you for the good times, hilarious stories and great memories. It’s been my life and I’m extremely grateful for what I’ve achieved in my career.
Ironically , after announcing retirement , there’s one thing I wanted to do as one last send off. My uncle died of brain cancer 4 yrs ago. Which is when I last competitively raced. I’d promised him I’d do 1 race in honour for him. So as a fun send off, I’ll be at Noosa Triathlon (no matter what my fitness!) and in the lead up I’ll be raising money for Brain cancer. Any donation would be great . See you there 🙂
keep smiling 🙂
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