As I sit here thinking of how to start this blog I would love it to be like any other … good news to tell , training is great and I’m ready to crack on with the season . Wishful thinking …polvam.ru
Don’t get me wrong. I always consider myself a very fortunate, lucky person and it’s been these last 8 months especially I keep reminding myself that . I have really been struggling . In fact the last few months has by far been the toughest time I’ve ever been through. Physically and emotionally.
And before you read the rest ( if you want to ) you are probably thinking “oh great another athlete whining about an injury “…. but I’m not asking for sympathy . I’m just desperate for any help , opinions or any answers to this frustrating injury . I also feel I owe an update to all my fans/followers and sponsors.
The majority of the people who have decided to read on , have probably read some of my previous blogs. You may follow me on social media because of who I am . I’ve been racing for Australia for over 10 yrs now , mostly on the ITU circuit and I love it .
Early last year after finally getting on the podium again ,I thought at 26 , I was maybe starting to creep my way up to reaching my full potential as an athlete. This Injury crept up on me . It struck halfway through the year and I thought sure ,I’ll just rest , miss a few races and I’ll get better . That was in July . It’s February and I’m in more pain than I was then .
I think the most frustrating thing is how can I put so much energy into getting better and just move backwards . What am I doing wrong ? Whose professional opinion do I listen to ? Constantly kicking my head against a brick wall .What is the answer ?
The injury I currently have now has been diagnosed as Plantar fasciitis . Although it started as some bone stress in both Calcaneus .Yes , it’s bilateral. Doesn’t sound too bad does it ? Not even I thought that . Years ago I had a case I ran through but it just got better . This is different . I can walk around ok sometimes ,but I don’t dare attempt to jog .
I’ve probably had every treatment under the sun now . Apart from surgery .
Being an injured athlete is somewhat of a vicious cycle for not just myself but for the ones I love who take the brunt of my frustration ( thank goodness Im a single girl right now ?!) . It’s an emotional roller coaster of denial , frustration , delusion , acceptance , tolerance and patience . I stress about what’s right , what not . Am I meant to push through the pain ? Why did I push it ? Self hate for pushing it too much …. There have been many tears . Which I guess is a good thing . It’s made me realize how badly I miss being in full training and how badly I want to just run again let alone compete . It also makes me realize how fortunate I still am and really respect those that are ill or not able to do the simple daily tasks that we all take for granted . Absolute gratitude .
So what is the plan then ?
Well ,thank goodness for my support team . By this I mean the people closest to me . My family , my very close friends and of course my Coach Michelle . Without these people I’d be lost…
Mish and I came to conclusion that I needed to take some time out . Not like sit on my arse doing nothing time out ,(because I’d literally go insane doing that ! ) but I’m just doing what I can do and trying to get my head off the injury . I had to accept the fact that I’m not going to be able to race anytime soon . Maybe not at all this year . . So I’m currently still swimming and hope to get back on the bike soon after these last lot of PRP injections . I’m also starting a new intense form of rehab on the Gold Coast tomorrow with a very open mind .
On the flip side , I’ve been keeping busy painting , and working on my women’s sports lingerie line which I intend to bring out by the end of this year . I’m also going to get my coaching qualifications . It’s an avenue Id like to pursue after my own career and If I can do it now , bonus . Obviously rehab is my number one priority, but outside of that I’m wanting to keep busy since I’m not doing the hours of training .
It’s hard to sit back and watch the season start . I may have to put 2014 out of the picture for now . But not once have I thought about giving up. I’m so very determined to get back fighting fit and stronger for 2015 .
Of course I hope it doesn’t take too long to heal and I really do look forward to getting back out racing again. Patience & faith ..
Lastly , best of luck to the Aussie girls and my former Leeds / UK training buddies ( really miss you ! ) and close friends starting their season .
Until the next update ,
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